Conversion has to become a curse so as to…..

Our conversion demands of us to let go of all previous lightening systems. As that happens, from the pythian darkness a gentle flickering light breaking through. That flickering light, which can only be seen and followed in darkness, will be all that we in need. Such as it was, so it is for you and I today.  This is not what our egotistical egos ,and false selves want, and crave. The Good Shepherd does meet our needs, but will not feed our greed. How often have I wished for God Who was more codependent. The recognition and the acceptance of a God of Healthy Wholeness is an essential step on the way to holiness. All of other creations are false gods. Their essential spiritual emptiness never provides the human spirit with anything that is lasting. We have and do worship at the altars of theses false gods but all that happens is the opposite of what we were hoping, craving. There was no "filling up," there was only an endless emptying out. This eternal emptying out continues right up to the time we are prepared for the finality of the last emptying out, the last surrender, death.  "Every curse is a blessing, every blessing is a curse" right? The process of being emptying out always leaves a void. A void that only The Original Lover can fill up, and make whole again. In death we say good bye to the limitations of time and space so as to enter the fullness of The Eternal life which was our origin.  Everything is a circle right.  You are caught up in this circle, not knowing when or exactly where the beginning was and where it ends. We are all caught in this circle, and nobody is outside this infinite circle of life.  We are all equals.  Despite what our egocentric would wish we are all "tarred with the same brush," created and loved uniquely. We all then share a common loving origin, which place of origin is our place of destiny!!! What an awe-full, wonder-full, exquisite mystery this speck on the continuum of time is. W…O…W!!!