" Silence is golden, unless you have kids. Then, silence, is suspicious." "Retiring, into silence, and solitude, woman/man, are exposed, to their nakedness" Benedict XVI " Silence is the place where, the unseen gathers, before becoming speech." Anonymous
We come from, Silence..Silence is the souls natural home... silence is the language of God, everything else is a poor translation." Rumi. " The most profound statements, are found in, silence" St. John of The Cross
" Keep silent, and I will teach you, wisdom". These are the words spoken, by Elihu to Job and have filtered down to you and Joe, in these sacramental moments. The sacramental moments moments, days for you, are "sacramental nanoseconds" for me. A nanosecond of silence is a great place to start. It is gone in a flash, but the gift bequeathed ? is ,eternal. I wonder did Paul have this in mind when he wrote, " Now, is the acceptable time, now is the time of salvation." The emerging wisdom those words, and their in-depth meaning evaded me, not for years, but for decades.
Let me make an attempt to explain. You see, I had the knowledge, but the wisdom, in time, has become a very welcomed visitor. A visitor, for whom I have ached, as Joe hiked the "highways and byways" of my Via Dolorosa. Because of grace, the workings of The Cosmic Christ, I am beginning to understand this visitor in now more like, a Permanent Resident. A Resident over Whom, Joe has no control. How often have I approached, His dwelling place, the prophet Elijah had a cave, have a room, only to find I am greeted by, silence. Not just silence, but sheer silence. often accompanied by sheer emptiness. That place of unmitigated, absolute silence and emptiness, has now become a room I do not want to go to, but Joe finds himself being mysteriously drawn to. There is always awaiting him either a welcoming, Presence, or an Emptiness that welcomes his endless questioning, and the uncomfortable, challenges inherent in, troubled restlessness. He is beginning to understand "he is a spiritual being, immersed in the human experience." de Chardin. How, awe-full, your awe-fullness !
Wisdom comes to all. Wisdom comes not instantaneously, it will take days, and speaking from experience, decades. She appears as a consolation for the pain endured from failure, rejection, abandonment, and endless encounters with nakedness. In other words, encounters with The Cross, The Paschal Mysteries, and The Cosmic, Risen Christ. " In Whom we live and move and have our being". Apart from his Transforming, and Transfiguring Presence we do not nor cannot have existence. So when another companion offers the compliment, " you are very wise, or, you have been blessed with wisdom" it is another way of saying, "You have a made lots of mistakes". Mistakes that spun you for a short or long time, but they were not allowed to define you. This mysterious happening was because of The Transforming Power, Who entered your life, AT, the exact times of failure. " "Creative Creator I offer myself unreservedly to You. Yes, my false self, and, true self. Remove from me every defect of character, that stands in the way of my usefulness in the revelation of your Cosmic Creativity. I may be just a dot on the screens of many, but You have me front and center, never to be moved, eternally."
Prayer, an honest acceptance, owning of who one is, where one is, and how powerless one is, is essential for transformation and transfiguration. Any prayer, or communication, will fit the bill. We are not perfect, so our prayer will be imperfect. The more brutally honest, one can be, not in proper or accepted words the more ???? This paradox, one has to experience for oneself....."The Spirit will guide you into all truth". The results are not to be hoarded, stow away, they are to be given away. In the act of giving, they become a Presence, " the wounded, becomes a wounded healer."( Nouwen) This is the power experienced in the meetings of each and every 12 Step Program. In the rooms of every twelve step program, The Wounded Good Shepherd is present. He is looking on each one of his beloved flock. He looks with mercy-full care, and never looses focus, even for a nanosecond ???
Elijah did not come to the refuge of the cave, on a winning streak. He was a frightened, be-wild ered prophet. At the end of his rope. The teachers, reaction to his predicament ," Elijah, you could not be in a better place." The retort will be instant, and very impolite.( Us, Irish , have a very pity phrase, that fits perfectly, for occasions such as this. I am not going to tell you, you have three guesses, and the first two, do not count.From my experience, the shorter, the better.) Spirituality begins with, TRUST, not perfection. Perfectionism is the greatest obstacle to an honest, healthy spirituality. We are all perfectly imperfect, the challenge lies in the acceptance of that truth, rather in the dis-functional comfort of the illusional, toxic, lie. Perfectionism is a deadly, controlling, destructive disease It takes a great number of trips down the trail of the illusion, until some earthquake happens, to shatter that illusion. Years ago I was blest with this earthquake like honesty, " Joe you are an egomaniac, with an inferiority complex." That honest assessment was the earthquake essential for beginning of my endless journey. Earthquakes are essential for, healthy evolution. It is only in hindsight we slowly begin to comprehend the value of our earthquakes. Where are the earthquakes in your life ? What are the challenges you have to face, to facilitate the emergence of your true self ? HONESTY, must I ?
Earthquakes are the one constant in the process of evolution. That is true for both the physical and spiritual worlds. We are experiencing tremendous earthquakes as our common home is being rattled, and cracks are appearing. Those cracks, are the passageway through which the truths essential for a healthy spirituality, filter into our lives. Reflect on the dynamic power Quantum has released ? Science and spirituality are no longer in tense opposition. Now they are being accepted as being, complimentary. All will ask, " Is there another way" ? Do not wastes your time, in ducking avoidance, of the harsh truths we are challenged to face. Remember The Presence in sheer silence ? That Presence will reveal, slowly, the healthy steps required for the unique Via Dolorosa you are destined to take. Follow in the steps of The Wounded Shepherd Who has gone before. These are the simple words we are destined to hear, again, and again. "Come, follow Me. Come, follow Me." He who is eternally calling, is Himself, The Bread of Life the enhancing strength we crave. In His Gospel journey, He was chosen, blessed, broken, and given. Big footsteps to follow, in companionship. G.J.