That is one thing that is getting through this hard head of mine, so many of the great spiritual truths appear to be paradoxical. "It is only when I am weak, it is then that I am strong" (Have not got the hang of that one yet. Work in progress ?) "Faith is a journey into uncertainty, not certainty." "It is only in dying that I am born to eternal life." We have to lose to win." "In every success is sown the seeds of failure. In every failure is sown the seeds of success" etc. etc. etc. etc. I am sure you have at least one paradox with which you are struggling to make sense. That is G R E A T. ( teed ?) Embrace the journey into uncertainty which is the paradoxical journey. Sad to say that in the beginning there is no great comfort in the journey, but then giving birth is not a walk in the park. The embrace of our paradoxes contains the stretching necessary for the healthy birthing of who we really are. Not who we would like to be, supposed to be, or expected to be. Birthing is about the birthing of our true self and risking the reaction of fear and anger of the false self. As we all know, or coming to understand, this conflict results in living a messy life. That is the mortal combat we are all faced with as we live each day, one now-moment at a time. Be rest assured we are safe within, the truth of each moment. It is "when we rest in truth we rest in God."