A wounded wanderer wonders at the mystery of life!!!

This is invitation to journey with me down memory lane.  This lane is getting longer by the moment, and I hope it will continue to meander for some time yet.  When that final step will be taken, the last breath drawn is not for me to decide.  My body will say I have brought you this far, aided by grace, now is the time to rest, and rest eternal.  Until then there are steps to be trodden. Leading to where? The place of that last step is life's mystery to be entered into one step at a time and leading to a life lived one moment at a time.  Thank you God that You have allowed me to allay one of my greatest fears.

Over the years I have read these sorrow-full words of warning; how sad it would be to meet death without ever having lived.  I have reflected on those words and asked, will this happen to me? Will I allow the wish of The Rabbi Jesus to become reality for me, "I have come that you will have life, and have it to the fullest." This "having life" is not just about existing it is about daring to live.  It is about facing life on life's terms, not blinking when the going gets tough, and shopping is not the answer. It is all about being led deeper beyond the medicators so readily available, booze, drugs, sex, food, exercise, work, sports, relationship, religion etc. to the well of everlasting strength which lies undisturbed where?  This life-giving gift is awaiting us in the last place so many of us would ever dare look for such an awe-full gift right inside of us.  Life then "is a daring adventure." "An adventure" which entails seeking and searching for "the pearl of great price," our own personal "Holy Grail." What an epic story is ours to live and write about.
In the seeking and searching I have journeyed through dark, dark, valleys, rugged hills and barren parched deserts. (My many, many visits to Calvary leads to a greater emptying out and a deepening crying out, "My God, My God why have you abandoned me.") That prayer of desperation and abandonment really works!!!)  I have been guided to lush mountain meadows carpeted with blazing colors of those oh so shy flowers.  The crackling silence is disturbed only by the joy-full sound of the merry brook as it murmurs it's song of praise of The Master Painter-Gardner.  Resurrection becomes a lived reality.

Wandering Thoughts ended in Patient Hope

These words of an old song have been going around and around in my in my head for a number of days now.  Whether you are a Hollies fan or a Neil Diamond fan you will remember these words, "The road is long with many a winding turn that leads to where who knows where." life's road has been long, and thank God for that.  There has been "many a winding turn" on the way.  Winding turns, especially if you are going up a steep mountain road, with long winding turns there is a demand, forced on us to go slow.  As I drove in the Rockies, I have seen the speed limit at 10 miles an hour.  That is S…l…O…W.  In the slowing down there is a gift(s) offered.  The operative word is offered.  Like all things that are offered they can be ignored, brushed aside or just outright rejected.  Sad to say we do this all the time.  We are in such a hurry in the doing of things we miss out on what is hidden, shyly waiting, to be revealed.  The revelation of the gift comes with the slowing down or better still, being in stillness.  In the slowing down we get caught up in the wonder, and beauty of the vistas.

Something inside of us says "I want more of this" and so we stop, we gaze, and our spirit is both nourished and quieted.  Do we have the words to adequately describe this often recurring encounter? No we do not.  We have lost the ability to communicate the essence of our spiritual experiences.  So our conversations are mainly about the doings of the things of life.  This is a great safeguard against having to face and reveal what is really happening.  We are prevented from touching our deepest reality, and sharing it.  Unfortunately, that can last for just so long, but in the meantime there is so much loneliness and pain before the spiritual earthquake happens.  To paraphrase something I read, "so much wisdom is lost when the secrets of the hearts are not shared." I would like to add my two cents, "So much hope, which is essential for the strengthening of the human spirit is lost when we do not share honestly from our depths."  Our depths are our real truths so it's there, Truth has taken up residence.  A Resident that we must discover and welcome as our Companion for life's journey.  This Resident never leaves us.  There in our depths our God has created a confidence that She/He is with us even though we do not feel The Presence.(Merton) For Merton this is the supernatural virtue of hope.  We all have been gifted with this gift, and as we face the great challenges of today must rely on that strengthening gift. We must be a people of hope and patient hope does not disappoint.

Merton writes in "No man is an Island:" "Supernatural hope is the virtue that strips us of all things in order to give us possession of all things."  We do not hope for what we have.  Therefore, to live in hope is to live in poverty, having nothing.  (That does not sound so good, does it? Kind of scary!!! Please, don't stop now. The good stuff comes next.) And yet, if we abandon ourselves to economy of Divine Providence, we have everything we hope for.  By faith we know God without seeing Him. By hope we possess God without feeling His presence.  If we hope in God, by hope we already possess Him, since hope is a confidence which He creates in our souls as secret evidence that He has taken possession of us.  So the soul that hopes in God already belongs to Him, and to belong to Him is the same as to possess Him, since He gives Himself completely to those who give themselves to Him.  The only thing faith and hope does not give us is the clear vision of Him Whom we possess.  We are united to Him in darkness, because we have to hope. We are saved by patient hope.  Romans 8:24.

Beloved "Hope punkers" we must be!!! Part 4

Ideally we are to carry and bring our experience of our encounter in the outdoor cathedral to our place of religious celebration.  The challenge of an authentic celebration is  to make the connection between life and liturgy.  If that does not happen we have a lifeless liturgy, which is a turnoff for so many today.  Pope Francis implores his priests to connect all forms life to the liturgy.  As I travel I love when it is announced there will be mass in the cathedral of God’s creation. Whether it is in the woods, on a mountain, on the beach, beside a river the Presence of The Creator is given praise and thanksgiving, in creative liturgies.  Leading also to prayers of petition where the needs of all humanity are raised in confident prayer.  We must somehow reach out  and touch the awe-full-ness both hidden and revealed in all, and celebrate that in a manner which encourages further journeying beyond present horizons. The spiritual journey is about horizons, not boundaries. WOW!!! the words an old song of Mama Cass Elliot has come to mind, It  was a big hit single for Mama Cass way back, but the words are so necessary for right now "there is a new world coming, coming in peace, coming in joy, coming in love" which is an apt description of the coming of The Kingdom of God !!!

Beloved "Hope punkers" we must be!!! Part 3

 So then you are pretty awe-full. Full of mystery, full of wonder and this leads to prayer.  How many claim the cathedral of the great outdoors to be there place of worship.  They experience The Above, The Beyond,  The Alone in their encounter with nature and are brought to the awareness of a reality they experience but cannot put into words. That is the way with all spiritual experiences.  We do not possess the words to adequately describe the encounter.  That is the place where artists come to our rescue, and become part of the solution.  All we have to do is read a poem about nature, or read a book which reveals where the secrets of nature are waiting to restore our souls to us.  Go to a museum and gaze, not look at a masterpiece of one of the great nature artists. It is too much for us and we go WOW. Here Wonder On Wonder is revealed and we are touched with a touch beyond description.  Elvis singing "How great Thou art" sure helps us here.  If you cannot get it on You Tube, Google the words and ever so slowly read and reflect on what you read, and your soul listens to.  You can also play  any one of the great symphonies and be transported to another state of being.

That is why nature is called the first bible.  We can thank the Irish monks who championed this reality, but then The Carpenter from Galilee was there ahead of them.  How many examples did The Prophet Jesus draw from nature to describe the unseen Kingdom He was sent to reveal.  Again in all reality is both hidden and revealed so much of what we need to know to be healthy spiritually.  Is there a conflict between the first and the second bible, only in those minds that are closed to the sacramentality of all of our Creator’s creation.  This is not about either/or, that is religiosity. It is however about both/and which is the spiritual way of looking at all of reality. WE come to the awareness that both the seen and the unseen have their origins in the loving creative mind of The Creator.  We are to "put on the mind" of The Creator so as to be an effective instrument in the continuing demanding ever so holy work of being co-creators of our universe.  If the workers do not have the mind of The Creator, what destruction awaits us. 

continued on July 22 Part 4

Beloved "Hope punkers" we must be!!! Part 2

Human beings are drawn to seek, and to search for that which is unknown. Their search really is for The Unknown and the Unknowable.  Some journey to the horizons of the seen, others are drawn to journey within and discover, "new heavens and new earths." deep within the depths of the their souls.  As with the pioneers of the west, and the explorers of other lands, we see many have sacrificed  their lives for a newly discovered truths which demanded an expansion of thought leading into a new, more vivifying spiritual reality.  Today we call many of those saints, but in their day and age they were looked upon with anger, scorn, and hatred.  Imprisoned, flogged, and even burned at the stake. Where would America be if not for that restless spirit within those early pioneers who longed to journey far to see what was beyond the physical horizons of their vision.  As it was with our predecessors so it is with you and I today. We must venture way beyond the limits of our fears to the awe inspiring mysterious destiny that lies beyond our knowledge and the  limited vision of today.  To listen and read we are inclined to think we in 2019 have arrived.  This is it.  Thank God for the scientific researchers, and theologians who have responded to the call and embrace the risk to "Go beyond" and risk the journey that takes them deeper. When they report back their newfound dynamic vision they are not reverenced as the prophets of today. So, many are treated the same way as the prophets of old. Not as bloody but just as death dealing.  By our Confirmation we are all called to be prophets, as never before.  The Spirit that inflamed the prophets of salvation history, which is all history, is the same Spirit that awaits our response to go forth and give birth to a radical newness. Yes, we must all respond consciously or unconsciously to  that quiet Voice encouraging us to seek ways beyond the secure certainties  so as to seek and to search out what is beyond horizons and the securities of today.

Each one of us is a  pioneer.  Bushwacking our way through the great unknown we call the present moment. In each new moment is hidden a new reality waiting to be discovered and reverenced.  Have you heard of the hikers addiction?  Can't wait to see what is around the next bend, and the next bend…..That addiction has got me in trouble more times than I would care to admit here. We are to look at each moment as a bend on life’s trail which when journeyed round opens up a newness never before encountered.  There is danger here.  We can be so caught up in the what is beyond the next bend, we neglect to enjoy the present new reality.  Wherever we are at we are on holy ground ever and always. We do not have to go to The Holy Land so as to tread on holy ground.  It is right there where you plant your foot.  The God within you encounters the Creator God both hidden and revealed in all creation.  This being so it is the Imminent God meeting creator God.  What a sacred mysterious encounter this is? This dynamic encounter happens where your feet are planted.  Planted feet are so common they have lost their essential mystery.  Do not be in a hurry to move on. Be still and know not only the place but experience  yourself as the place of a mysterious encounter. 

continued on July 20 Part 3