We are told it all begins with our journey into our inner
being. There will be those who will recoil from journeying within the depths of
who we are. Solitude is a necessary prerequisite for this great adventure. But
solitude like all blessings brings with it great pain. Here is what Thomas Mann
wrote:
"Solitude gives birth to the original in us, to beauty
unfamiliar and perilous- to poetry. But also, it gives birth to the opposite:
to the perverse, the illicit. the absurd."
In solitude we are asked, forced to
meet, and embrace all of the pain, all of the suffering, all the isolation, all
the loneliness, all the powerlessness that another can experience. In other
words, I meet my sister/brother in the depths of who I am discovering myself to
be. That is why the journey into the depths of being an authentic human being
is not readily embraced. For me it seemed to begin without I being aware of it.
It was not until I was led to the blessings of solitude that I began to get just
an inkling of what I needed to learn most. It has been a long, long process. It
is not false self enhancing, it is about the false self destruction. The false self,
the self of my creation, does not die easily. This process has been going
on for some time. When will it end? only
end with my final breath. So I do not know when my journey will end. Today,
tomorrow, next week, next month ??? All I know is that it will happen.
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