We are now deep into the lenten, desert journey into a GROWING honesty. We will never be completely honest with ourselves. Oscar Wilde, " human beings can only deal with so much honesty". " When you are honest about your dishonesty, you are being honest," the message I received from my friend Fr. Tot many decades ago. Last week the closing sentence; " our spiritual garbage can, and does prevent from the vision necessary", for what? The vision of the depths of infinite mercy-full love that awaits us in the return to the arms of our Prodigal Mother/Father. The depths of mercy-full love can never be fully understood in this worldly existence. This Mercy-full love is infinite, and we finite, limited.
Our spiritual garbage will lay heavy upon us, suffocating us ,as it were, if, and when we allow it. We all have garbage. I have lived in my home since 2007. I now am in the process of working through all the physical garbage I have accumulated since June of that year. What I now see as garbage did appear at one time, as necessary for an enjoyable life. How many of us find that a journey to the grocery store,or for almost any store, will guarantee garbage. The minimalist's life has never been the life for me. I am Irish and some of my inherited character defects have gotten in the way.
As I am preparing to exit this life, this garbage work, is essential. I have to face honestly both the physical spiritual garbage. Our spiritual garbage can be broken down into, GUILT---Anger---- Resentment---Boredom---Anxiety---Greed---Envy. That is an awe-full lot to process. That is why during Lent the Faith Community had a visual to help with this challenging process. There was a cave at the left side of the sanctuary. The same cave that was the cornerstone of our Christmas scene. Why use a cave ? The cave has been used since the beginning to describe the soul. Our soul is a cave, and it is therein we experience the Mysteries of Incarnation and Resurrection. One desert father's advice to a questioner was, " Go to your cave, and it will teach you everything." As it was, so it is, and ever shall be, until, the end of time.
The First Sunday in Lent saw, preventing entrance to the cave big blocks on which we written the seven words, that were written at the beginning of the last paragraph. Each week one large block was removed and placed in the midst of the community. It took me a couple of years to realize I was wrong in how I understood the placing of the blocks. Those first years I saw the blocks as preventing exit from the Paschal Mystery. From my reading I had to post my mistake, and teach the blocks prevent the entrance to to the cave, tomb, and not the exit. ( A perfect exit for today. The journey is long, so expect more.)